December 6, 2023

Love Addiction

Oh, my beautiful boy and myself

we will not sleep together

again

This may have been our last night

sharing dreams

in the same bed

for you have redefined 

us and now we must 

change.

We shouldn’t anymore

we’re friends

but last night

and this morning

we are lovers

were.

We were lovers

many months ago

you softened me.

The skies still glow from

our history

even if you cannot see it.

One touch brings it back

into a standstill moment:

the sensation on my hand from yours

brings unbearable longing

aching love.

Time has turned my innards

into tough meat

you left and I hurt

Our memories live in my mind

every day

it saved me

it still does

does it save you?

do you feel it still?

if not I will feel for

the both of us.

Pain pulses through my veins

making my blood toxic

no

this is not the end

let us grow apart and 

back together

this path in the forest

leading to a field

it’s just for us

Our heartbeats synchronize

in the cruel silence

of the world

for our survival 

is with each other.

Purify my blood

inject your touch into my veins

to save me

again.