December 6, 2023

Mine is Yours

1.

My hands touch and prod

So beautiful and sexy

Their body and mine

I feel so good

watching my hands 

grip the fat of their thighs.

“I’m tired,” they said

“Don’t worry,

I’m almost done.”

God, I am such a good partner

2.

My eyes squeeze closed

wondering where I went wrong.

How could I say no when he

wanted so badly for me to say yes?

He calls me his world 

claims he needs me

but he makes me feel 

trapped and used.

When did I become emptied out

and discarded? Is this love:

asking until I say yes and

going until he is done.

But he’s the nice guy.

He’s the one my parents like

and the one my friends

approve and the one

everyone is friendly with,

but they don’t know.

They will never know.

I was so excited to meet new

people. I thought this would

be better than home. I am the

strong-willed one in my family!

Yet I stay frozen under this man who

forced me to love him, who told me

“I am yours” without asking if

I even wanted him.

He has locked me

in a cage for my protection

but now I am trapped.

He feeds me so that

I need him.

I will leave when I have a

plan and I will finally tell

everyone who he actually

is.