October 5, 2023

What You’ve Taken

You took my eyes

You scooped them out by the sockets

and replaced them with these dry, emotionless ones

that can’t even begin to focus on anything.

You took my body

You took it and called it yours

Used it like it was yours and only yours

Like it would forever be yours

Even now you claim it is yours

It’s no longer mine

It’s a shell of the powerful and strong innards that it used to be.

Stop taking what is not yours

You gave me yourself and expected me to give mine back

but I didn’t.

I knew better

But you stole it anyway.

You have taken so many parts of me

over such a short time.

I let go of my anger but now I’m left with a hole in my chest,

an aching of hurt

of what you did to me.

I’m sad.

Why did you have to do it?

And now you are taking over every other aspect of my life

You are hanging out with my friends

You live right upstairs

You are always there and always taking my space

Disrespected me in my space

Where am I safe?

Who am I safe with?

You have taken away the safety of this place that I call home.

I belong here but you are making it impossible to exist.

Why am I getting punished for your hurt?

Just help me understand

because you abused and manipulated and used,

god did you use, but I am getting punished?

I chose you because I thought I would be safe

but I have never felt as unsafe as I do right now.